January 22, 2010

I have been in so much pain these past few days and all I have wanted to do is sleep. I sure hope whatever is going on with me soon passes because I have so much I want to do and no time to do it, even though I am off work right now. Living with pain is very difficult. It makes you lose concentration and it makes you just feel like giving up on everything. Well, I am a fighter and I will not let this pain get the better of me.

January 22, 2010 - Blogs Posted to Date

10. What I Have Learned about Writing - http://hubpages.com/hub/What-I-Have-Learned-about-Writing
11. What is Art to Me - http://hubpages.com/hub/What-is-Art-to-Me
12. Using a Template to Build a Website - http://hubpages.com/hub/Using-a-Template-to-Build-a-Website

13. Olympic Red Mittens - http://hubpages.com/hub/Olympic-Red-Mittens

January 17, 2010

Okay, I don't think there is anyway that I am going to finish the 30 Hubs in 30 Days Hubchallenge for January because I have taken on a major project that I have wanted to do for a very long time and that is to do a major overhaul of my website, http://www.bedtymetales.com. However, I will do my best to complete as many hubs as I can.

January 13, 2010

Really painful day today. It took me about 2 hours before I could climb out of bed today. I find the pain is way worse in the morning. I could walk a bit this afternoon. I tried to do the dishes and only got halfway through them and had to stop.

Yesterday I wrote about my writing. I am going to write a hub about "art" and what "art" means to me. My daughter and I had a good laugh over the topic of art last night. Apparently she got caught in a debate in school over her opinion.

January 12, 2009

Today is a very lazy day for me. I am in a lot of pain with my back today and pretty much stayed in bed the whole day. I could not really sleep well though because of the pain so I got up for awhile. I did manage to make it outside and go to the drugstore but that was very painful and I won't be venturing out for awhile yet because of the pain.

My back pain is very stressful and depressing for me. I swore up and down that I would not go through this pain again and yet, here I am, going through pretty much the same thing as I did last year only this time the pain does seem to be worse.

My future scares me, so I try not to think about it too much. I pretty much just have to live day by day right now and try to get through each day with as little pain as possible.

January 11, 2010 - Blogs Posted to Date

7. I Do Not Like Being Cold - http://hubpages.com/hub/I-Do-Not-Like-Being-Cold
8. Playing Mafia Wars on Facebook - http://hubpages.com/hub/Playing-Mafia-Wars-on-Facebook
9. Cell Phone Usage - http://hubpages.com/hub/Cell-Phone-Usage

January 11, 2010

Today was just another depressing day for me. I am so sick of back pain. I want to be out doing things with my friends, not stuck inside. My back pain is getting a bit better but I am pretty wobbily on my feet. I am getting spasms from my back into my left hip which scares me because last year I was getting the same thing and a couple of times my legs actually gave out on me and I fell.

January 10, 2010

The past few days have been a nightmare for me. I woke up one morning and could not move, could not get out of bed. I was in so much pain. I have had back pain in the past, but nothing like this.

Needless to say, I was not able to come online for the past few days. Now, for me, not to come online, something is wrong. I am always online. I was not able to update my websites nor was I able to write any hubs.

I have some catching up to do with the 30 Hubs in 30 Days January Challenge. I will have to write at least two hubs per day for the next few days.

Hub topics that I have thought of writing are:

- Why I don't like the cold?
- What is important to me about being a Canadian?
- Do I think the 2010 Olympics will bring Canadians closer?

Blogs Posted to Date

Here is a list of the blogs that I have completed for the 30 Hubs in 30 Days January Challenge:

1. The Movie Avatar - http://hubpages.com/hub/The-Movie-Avatar
2. PetVille on Facebook - http://hubpages.com/hub/Petville-on-Facebook
3. I Hate Country Music - http://hubpages.com/hub/I-Hate-Country-Music
4. Biopsy - http://hubpages.com/hub/Biopsy
5. Living with Back Pain - http://hubpages.com/hub/Living-with-Back-Pain
6. My Kitten Sleeps on My Head - http://hubpages.com/hub/My-Kitten-Sleeps-on-My-Head

January 7, 2010

I don't know what I am going to write about today for the 30 Hubs in 30 Days January Challenge, but I am sure I will think of something.

I am really disappointed and discouraged today. I have been actively looking for work for the past few months now because my job is ending at the end of March of this year. Last night, I got an email from a company that wanted me to go in for an interview today. Unfortunately I had to tell them that I couldn't go because of my back pain. This is the first time in my life that I have turned down a job interview.

I feel really bad about this whole thing because it is like someone is rubbing salt in my open wound here. I want to work. I want to be productive and yet, right now, I can't even move. Life can be so unfair at times.

January 6, 2010

My whole life fell apart today. I have been fighting back pain for one full year now and I thought I had it licked, until I woke up this morning. I couldn’t move. I couldn’t walk.

I had severe back pain which started on January 30, 2009, almost one year ago. I have been fighting this back pain since then and it took six months but in that six months, I was able to return to work part-time.

Then, my nightmare began all over again on December 10, 2009. On December 10, 2009, I had a biopsy done and that biopsy was the beginning of my latest nightmare. When performing the biopsy the doctor put pressure on the inside of my back and I instantly felt pressure and then pain.

Right now, I am thoroughly pissed right off with the whole world. I have fought so hard and for so long now. I am so sick of it. I am sick of everything. This back pain has now taken away the one most important thing in my life, my freedom. I will not be able to go out with my friends and enjoy myself anymore. I am stuck at home in severe pain and this is not going to be a very good thing for me at all.

I am hoping that I can put all my efforts and thoughts into writing right now because that is going to be my outlet, a way to try to escape this pain that I am in.

New 30 Hubs in 30 Days Challenge - Journal Entries

I am participating in the 30 Hubs in 30 Days Challenge. I have been out of the loop for a few months but am back now with full force. I am going to start a hub journal as well, chronically my life's ups and downs as I start the 30 Hubs in 30 Days January Hub Challenge.