Friday, January 22, 2010

January 22, 2010

I have been in so much pain these past few days and all I have wanted to do is sleep. I sure hope whatever is going on with me soon passes because I have so much I want to do and no time to do it, even though I am off work right now. Living with pain is very difficult. It makes you lose concentration and it makes you just feel like giving up on everything. Well, I am a fighter and I will not let this pain get the better of me.

January 22, 2010 - Blogs Posted to Date

10. What I Have Learned about Writing -
11. What is Art to Me -
12. Using a Template to Build a Website -

13. Olympic Red Mittens -

Sunday, January 17, 2010

January 17, 2010

Okay, I don't think there is anyway that I am going to finish the 30 Hubs in 30 Days Hubchallenge for January because I have taken on a major project that I have wanted to do for a very long time and that is to do a major overhaul of my website, However, I will do my best to complete as many hubs as I can.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

January 13, 2010

Really painful day today. It took me about 2 hours before I could climb out of bed today. I find the pain is way worse in the morning. I could walk a bit this afternoon. I tried to do the dishes and only got halfway through them and had to stop.

Yesterday I wrote about my writing. I am going to write a hub about "art" and what "art" means to me. My daughter and I had a good laugh over the topic of art last night. Apparently she got caught in a debate in school over her opinion.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

January 12, 2009

Today is a very lazy day for me. I am in a lot of pain with my back today and pretty much stayed in bed the whole day. I could not really sleep well though because of the pain so I got up for awhile. I did manage to make it outside and go to the drugstore but that was very painful and I won't be venturing out for awhile yet because of the pain.

My back pain is very stressful and depressing for me. I swore up and down that I would not go through this pain again and yet, here I am, going through pretty much the same thing as I did last year only this time the pain does seem to be worse.

My future scares me, so I try not to think about it too much. I pretty much just have to live day by day right now and try to get through each day with as little pain as possible.

Monday, January 11, 2010

January 11, 2010 - Blogs Posted to Date

7. I Do Not Like Being Cold -
8. Playing Mafia Wars on Facebook -
9. Cell Phone Usage -

January 11, 2010

Today was just another depressing day for me. I am so sick of back pain. I want to be out doing things with my friends, not stuck inside. My back pain is getting a bit better but I am pretty wobbily on my feet. I am getting spasms from my back into my left hip which scares me because last year I was getting the same thing and a couple of times my legs actually gave out on me and I fell.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

January 10, 2010

The past few days have been a nightmare for me. I woke up one morning and could not move, could not get out of bed. I was in so much pain. I have had back pain in the past, but nothing like this.

Needless to say, I was not able to come online for the past few days. Now, for me, not to come online, something is wrong. I am always online. I was not able to update my websites nor was I able to write any hubs.

I have some catching up to do with the 30 Hubs in 30 Days January Challenge. I will have to write at least two hubs per day for the next few days.

Hub topics that I have thought of writing are:

- Why I don't like the cold?
- What is important to me about being a Canadian?
- Do I think the 2010 Olympics will bring Canadians closer?

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Blogs Posted to Date

Here is a list of the blogs that I have completed for the 30 Hubs in 30 Days January Challenge:

1. The Movie Avatar -
2. PetVille on Facebook -
3. I Hate Country Music -
4. Biopsy -
5. Living with Back Pain -
6. My Kitten Sleeps on My Head -

January 7, 2010

I don't know what I am going to write about today for the 30 Hubs in 30 Days January Challenge, but I am sure I will think of something.

I am really disappointed and discouraged today. I have been actively looking for work for the past few months now because my job is ending at the end of March of this year. Last night, I got an email from a company that wanted me to go in for an interview today. Unfortunately I had to tell them that I couldn't go because of my back pain. This is the first time in my life that I have turned down a job interview.

I feel really bad about this whole thing because it is like someone is rubbing salt in my open wound here. I want to work. I want to be productive and yet, right now, I can't even move. Life can be so unfair at times.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

January 6, 2010

My whole life fell apart today. I have been fighting back pain for one full year now and I thought I had it licked, until I woke up this morning. I couldn’t move. I couldn’t walk.

I had severe back pain which started on January 30, 2009, almost one year ago. I have been fighting this back pain since then and it took six months but in that six months, I was able to return to work part-time.

Then, my nightmare began all over again on December 10, 2009. On December 10, 2009, I had a biopsy done and that biopsy was the beginning of my latest nightmare. When performing the biopsy the doctor put pressure on the inside of my back and I instantly felt pressure and then pain.

Right now, I am thoroughly pissed right off with the whole world. I have fought so hard and for so long now. I am so sick of it. I am sick of everything. This back pain has now taken away the one most important thing in my life, my freedom. I will not be able to go out with my friends and enjoy myself anymore. I am stuck at home in severe pain and this is not going to be a very good thing for me at all.

I am hoping that I can put all my efforts and thoughts into writing right now because that is going to be my outlet, a way to try to escape this pain that I am in.

New 30 Hubs in 30 Days Challenge - Journal Entries

I am participating in the 30 Hubs in 30 Days Challenge. I have been out of the loop for a few months but am back now with full force. I am going to start a hub journal as well, chronically my life's ups and downs as I start the 30 Hubs in 30 Days January Hub Challenge.